2014 Minneapolis Bikers Month – How Biking Helped With My Depression

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I want to tell you a story why I became depressed and how the 2014 Minneapolis Bikers Month program helped me bounce back.

Ever since my best friend died, I have been so depressed. She and I were so close, and I thought, I knew everything about her. I knew she was going through a hard time with her mom, who was a perfectionist. She was always being bombarded to study hard and get into Harvard. One night, she just lost it. She called me after she downed a bottle of pills, but it was too late. My best friend said goodbye to me, and I think she gasped on her last breath while she was saying, “so long.”

This is not something that I would wish even on my frenemies. A best friend dying – committing suicide, that is – and you are so helpless during the whole ordeal, it’s nerve-wracking and shocking. At times, I get spaced out just by thinking about it. How can she do that? Was her life so hopeless for her that she felt to die was the only way out?

I cried for most days and every night for a month or so, until I received an email from her. No, it’s not from the grave – funny you. She programmed an email to be sent to me on a specific date, that if she is already gone. It was a letter full of love and asking for forgiveness. She asked forgiveness for having to leave so soon, and for leaving me all alone. Her reasons were crazy, but I understood her. She just told me one thing – to go out and live my life. One of the ways to “live my life,” according to her, was to have fun traveling locally.

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She wanted me to join the bikers association which I did. She wanted me to take the bike tour, which I also did, and she was right. It made me happy. Biking helped me with my depression – the same misery that I suffered when she left this world.

I am at peace now, and I will continue to do this. Not just for her, but also for myself.

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